"Trust your own instinct. Your mistakes might as well be your own, instead of someone else's."

No one can ever understand how deep i am hurt, my feelings.

How did i broke down into buckets of tears.

Crying myself to sleep is a "its-been-long-since-i've-done-it" thingy.

And whats worse is that i woke up the next day with tears also...

Those harsh words from Mum really hurt me deep down my soft-heart.

I walked out of the room,with a broken heart and sorrows, over to my room.

Sat and stared at the blank computer screen infront of me.

I keep on questioning myself why am i still alive when i was drowned at the wildwildwet early that day..

No, mum didn't scolded me because of me going to the wildwildwet but it just a UNEXPECTEDLY RANDOM scoldings.

One thing i feel like doing at the point of time is to run away from home, again.

Yes,AGAIN because i ran away from home before but came back an hour after..

but i think far.

Even to commit suicide crossed my mind, but again i think very far.

It's all not worth it, and that's the reason why i am still here.

It's not that i am not aware of the real person i am,

it's not that i've not realised that THE TYPE OF FEMALE i am,

it's not that i have not been a good daughter,

but to change the attitude and habits need time...

I am very upset, even now, and i am speechless.

I didn't know how am i going to explain further what i exactly feel to my dearest readers and even to anybodyelse who really cares.

I need time to calm myself down...

Nights!

I might have no choice but to move totally to onsugar.com because blogger.com can't load on Mozilla Firefox then now even on IE!

Trying to test my patience and anger issit?! *gggggggggrrrrrrrrr*

So anyway, school has finally re-opened!

And you know i recieved a counselling form on the SECOND DAY of school of my SECOND YEAR??

Yes, how pathetic and how lame my school's section-head can be!

AGAIN, counselled for late-coming and fyi i am late again two days after.

This time i am not sure whether or not i will receive it again.

So now time checked is 5.32am, and why am i not sleeping yet when i have to go to school later?

I tell ya, i am sacrificing my sleep for school!

Yes, because i don't want at the end of the term/semester my results turned-out bad just because of my attendance.

And what's more that i am most concerned is, i don't want to get a debarment letter!

I've been rotting infront of the computer doing nothing for the past four/five hours, and now i've to stop wasting the electricity. LOL

I'll do a proper update next time aiites?

I want to go do some laundry and hopefully by then time flies and i can get ready for school!

And hopefully i won't fall asleep during lesson later!

C'ya in school peeps! ;DD