Today marks the FOURTH day that we didn't contact each other, neither a message or a call from YOU and you don't expect me to find you like i normally do. I'm not being ego but the fact that i am letting you go on purpose for good and you should know why. Or maybe you should just spend some time to reflect. Nobody likes to waste time entertaining people like you who likes to drag everything, especially when you already give hope on others. Nobody likes to be accused on the things they didn't do. "One for all, all for one* clans, NOT. It's just your mindset that matters here. *smile*

When you call someone, even many times, and he/she doesn't picks up the phone still, there must always be a reason why. When you ask the person out of curiousity, but he/she still refuse to tell you why, you should have just look in the mirror and ask youself why. Another irritating human that needs a place in the zoo. I've done my part to think far and reflect, but have you?

"I can forgive and forget, but you still doesn't deserve a place in my heart"

"Turn your wounds into wisdom. "

"Any idiot can face a crisis - it's day to day living that wears you out. "

Three failed attempts to blog, and i am forcing myself to update because i really don't feel like blogging actually.

No-mood-to-blog season?

Hopefully, i won't exit halfway through again.

I think i am spending too much time on computers, and abang with his fishes uses flows of water.

The electricity and water bill is the most heart-pain one to see, and Mum is being nice and always NICE.

Today when Mum and i walked through the "Scrulpture Park" on our way home, the conversation.

Mum : Girl, nanti kau khawin aku buatkan kat park, pelamin atas situ(fingers pointing to the "little hill" in the park) jadi biler kau jln naik semuer org bley tgk. Meja bulat, tk cukup kerusi org boleh diri mcm party gtu kan.

Me : *looks at Mum and just smile*

If i were to translate what Mum said in English, it goes like this.

"Girl, later if you want to get married i will do for you in the park and the thrones above there(fingers pointing to the "little hill" in the park). So when you walk-in, everbody can see. Round table, and if there's not enough chairs the guest can stand just like we're having a party.

And this is not the first time.

In my heart, " i don't even have a boyfriend yet now and you want me to get married?! " .

Mum, your dreams will not come so soon but hopefully it will come through one day ok? HAHA :P

I am happy for Junisha to see her gets better from what has happened.

Eventhough, her smiles may be just a fake one but at least it makes me smile when she smiles.

I believe that you are strong enough to handle this and i also believe that there is wisdom behind it.

I am glad that i didn't fail to be there for you, to be your listening ears, this time when i have always failed to do so.

The very nice overview of the sea and the overlook of Malaysia at Woodlands Waterfront will be best to relax our mind, but unfortunately we went at the wrong timing.

We are like two burning object under the hot scorching sun , showered with sweat.

We keep the camera rolling, still. (:

Seen before? Yeah, all the pictures has been uploaded on Facebook.

"Blogs can be boring without pictures" . ;D

Nana only joined us after that, because she woke-up late. Slacked at the void deck and home.

And talking about Facebook, i have just created a new account yesterday for some reasons.

I'd like to keep it "clean" as far as possible.

Do add me up, Miz_lady_ila@hotmail.com . Or please kindly accept the "friend request" from Elle-Elly-Shous if you have not done so. Thanks.

Finally, i bought a jumper, although it's not really what i wanted, but a good piece to start-off with. And also a new mousepad! whee~

THANKS MUM, I LOVE YOU. *insert manymany smiles*

p.s  : PURPLE, ain't my choice but what it seemed to be. (:

; and finally IT'S HOLIDAY!

Projects and test/exam(s) kept me occupied lately, and that itself can explain to why i did not update.

OH NO! My hair is becoming thinner each day, and this is all due to STRESS.

But thank god, i managed to hand-in my work on time, before the holidays.

And now i can be stress-free and relax my mind at home.

My holidays starts from 12June2010, which is about a week ago.

And on that day itself, i am invited to Zizi's belated birthday BBQ pit @ECP.

A chaotic and tiring day i can say.

THE BIRTHDAY  GIRL - #1

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The guys bbq, the ladies take pictures. ;)

And is what happened after the whole event, when the birthday girl is going for her bath.

It's not clear though, but she was being sabotaged with a bag of a mixture of different sauces and oil.

Soon after her bath, she went back to her bbq pit while me and the other three of us headed home.

The next day, supposingly i have a wedding invitation to attend, but as expected i can't make it.

And from 14June2010 till today, what i do best is to rot@home.

Ask me out anyone? , but i have no money. ;)