My previous post was

" My mind is not functioning, i can't think properly . My heart is dead, i can't feel what's exactly inside. I am like abnormal with nothing good in me. I am like a failure to everything. It seemed like everything that is happening to me involves majority of the people i know, and therefore i will always be labelled as the "trouble-maker" . I must admit that i am one, and I've brought many people down. I've made many suffer. The truth has come out from *insert name here* .  A family problem,not relationship for goodness sake. And i don't feel there is a need for me to live any longer, but that was minutes ago. To think back that someone has lived and still living her life for the sake of another person, it's good for me to change my entire life over to become a new valuable person and i should, really. It takes time and effort but if i really want, I CAN DO IT! It's never too late for anything, true enough?  I can't let emotions take over me, and i shall not let the "easily-influenced" me to continue too. Two things, 1) i must stop all my nonsense ; 2) i must have self-control. Actually, I've committed a mistake of all that requires my presence in court. Anything got to do between the government and court is seriously a very big deal and a very big matter! I disappointed someone, and i think it is no use crying over spilled milk. The thing is, and the fact that i can't cry. I would be lying to myself if i say i am not sad , but i didn't even shed a single tear but to just stare blankly to the surroundings. And i would be lying if i say i am NOT lack of love. ".

I was frustrated that there is an error at the very end of the post only when i finished typing everything previously, so i've decided to unpublish it.  But i am retrieving it here by "copy and paste" -ing from the draft, because I WANT YOU TO KNOW, do you get what i mean? I hope so. (:

Let us together, stop the gap that is becoming wider each day between us and settle things down soon as possible.

It's not that difficult but to just speak up and be open.

I WANT BACK THE OLD US, pretty pls! :DD

Too many things running through my mind since just now, that i don't exactly know what i want to blog about but i think i am just typing blindly here instead. Anyway, as usual on Fridays, will definitely go out after school with my peeps when school ends very early and none of us likes to go home early. Since Izyan and i was craving for Saffron's mee kuah, and that we don't want to go just the two of us, i must admit that we actually begged the others to tag along with us even after knowing that they got no money to spend. It's pathetic, but they agreed to accompany us afterall and i must thanked THEM. :D Believe it or not, but we waited for one hour just for the sake of mee kuah! One thing to bare in mind, MEE KUAH WILL ONLY BE AVAILABLE AFTER THREE IN THE EVENING!

Don't blame me for this boring post with no pictures, because onsugar doesn't seemed to allow me upload pictures.

And today, it is very evil of me to ask someone to stay away from me. I am really sick and tired of everything, and that you have came to the limit of my patience. I can't tolerate any longer, and i shall not fake any longer too. I have to say that i gave up on you, and i don't regret anything. Thanks for letting me be part of your life for the past six years. I've seen you trying to win my heart back for years after the broke-up but too bad, try harder boy. Your method is just not right, and the same old method just doesn't work for me. Please go and don't ever come back. I am glad that i managed to handle everything by myself! (:

MARLBORO ICE BLAST CALLING ME,

GOODNIGHT MY DEAR! *muacksmuacks*

Hello! I am currently in school. Basically doing nothing in class and obviously i am very bored that i resulted in blogging in school. This week has been great, and the energy wasted were paid off, really. And oh, I LOVE THURSDAY! The best day of the week. And the weekeneds will be approaching so very soon. Plans for weekened? For me, i guessed i will be just resting and rotting at home and i shall always be prepared for any last-minute plans.. I want to save money too at the same time! Not to forget, Hari Raya is coming also and i have yet to do the shopping for accerosies, bags and heels. How i wish there is MONEY-FALL-FROM-THE-SKY-SEASON! I am pretty excited for chalet which is in about two weeks time. After raya soon i will be flying off overseas! See! When you actually list down everything, you will tend to then realise how time actually flies very very fast and also how fast a year would just pass.

♥♥♥ MUSTAFA CENTRE WITYH MUM YESTERDAY WAS AWESOME! THANKS MUM, ILYILYILY!! ♥♥♥

I've been a good grandaughter to my nenek lately. I mean, as you may know i don't sleepover at Grandma's that often anymore like i used to. Therefore, i don't look after her that often too. Grandma was admitted to the hospital on emergency case and three days straight i've been going up and down Outram Park hill that leads to the hospital. I think i can loose weight if i will have to go through that like E.V.E.R.Y.D.A.Y! Grandma have been discharged from the hospital today, and i went to fetch her together with my uncle. That explains my absence in school. Her condition is still not stable yet though. Hopefully everything will be as per normal soon. :(

That's all for now readers!

Let's sing it :-

MAC' DONALDS ; KFC AND THE PIZZA HUT PIZZA HUT! (:

A million sorry to my girls if i am with my "muka-taik" these days, be it in school or outside.

And also for me being anti-social most of the time.

If you guys realise, i don't talk especially when i am eating and i eat very fast.

But when i talk or get distracted by others, i will eat very very slow.

Over to Grandma's place right after that, and i get to see my handsome before he leave for Melacca.

Hello everyone! :D

How's your weekend? , and are you guys ready for work/school tommorrow?

I hope you have a great time over the weekends!

How bout mine, then?

OH, WHAT A BORNG WEEKEND I HAD!

How boring? *look down*

CAMWHORING IS ALWAYS THE BEST SOLUTION TO BOREDOM, AGREE? ;)

Playing the sims is no longer my solution to boredom already unless my brother return me back the Sim3! I saw it in your room just last two/three days and don't claimed that you didn't take it horkay!

And i feel so lonely today, and only Izyan knows how much i've been complaining to her. Damn! School will start in less than 24-hours' time. The second-year engineering students will go for their attachment, and i wonder if the school will look lively still. And looking at my new time-table, makes me hate school so much. I want back my only 4-days of school, pretty please? Lesson will start at only 1pm later, and i have about 5-hours to sleep.

Thanks for reading my boring post.  GOODBYE! *hugs*

These days i have been very moody, i got no appetite to even eat.

Eating just makes me feel like puking, and imagine how bad is that when i can't even finish up a two-piece plain roti prata!

Besides that, i am feeling down these days too.

The recent status on my fb ,

" Feels so much better after i sang my hearts out for three solid hours of solo karaoke session at home, with the fact that i am feeling so down these days ! Bleargh! "

is somehow just a fake one after realizing that nothing actually changes the feeling of depression.

I just don't know what is happening to me, either.

Today i didn't go to school, because i tumpang MC.

My brother is on MC, and my mum is not working.

Mr Daniel, why can't you just stop be so irritating?

My mum also got no time to entertain you and to fcuking pick up your phone calls! HAHA! :D

Today i am very hyper, i got energy to laugh like nobody's business despite me eating only porridge for the whole day!

It actually started when i finally met Sasha after such a long time, and im touched with your message.

But she very action today, with her iPhone! hmph!

And that someone is action too. *double-hmph!*

I walked home with a wide smile, and last but not least thanks to whoever that makes my day.

I have a good time talking with you. (:

Before i even entered ITE Balestier, i don't feel any excitement at all. Reason because, i don't like to change school here and there.  Especially when you have to adapt to the new environment and meeting new people. Yes, i hate meeting new people especially in school! But I HAVE TO,  isn't ? Weirdo!  And today, is my first day of school@ITE Balestier. As expected, my classmates and i lost our way there. We ended-up taking the bus, instead of walking. I find Boon Keng MRT station quite far from the campus. Padan muka kan, siapa suruh pandai-pandai nak jln abeh sesat! HAHA.. Finally reached the school, and we were sweating so badly. What's my first impression then? In terms of the facilities, i can say that it's of course much more better than ITE Bedok. A much more bigger campus, or should i stay a longer one? Imagine you can get tired by just walking the whole stretch of level one from end to the other, but it's obviously fun to explore. In terms of food, umm... I did not eat, but according to my friends it doesn't taste good. And the food doesn't even look as tempting because it's just plainly the mee with vege. Without chicken or even egg. School ended early than usual, which is at 3pm. Headed to Bugis with Nerd and Mel while the others to some other place. Haji Lane was next, and laugh at me all you want but it is my first time going there. Nerd sent us to the bus-stop to go home before he went to work at 6pm. Something embarrassing happened to me on my way home, and i don't wish to mention here.

I've been listening to songs about love for the past few hours, be it in Malay or English. I am being so very emotional out of a sudden. And guess what songs that i have been repeating ? It's, Menadah Gerimis by Ziana Zain. Why that song? Seriously, i myself didn't know. But wait! Surprisingly, i actually managed to finish up and hand-in my my assignment that i mentioned in the previous post. Fyi, i do the assignment while listening to that song repeatedly. Motivation or what? HAHA. Time checked now is, 4.08am and i still can manage to stay awake till now despite sleeping for only one/two hour the previous night.

I AM TOTALLY SHAGGED, AND BED IS CALLING! BYE! :D

Four more days, and HELLO BALESTIER! , which means no more holidays. I am not ready for the new environment, really. I AM NOT READY FOR SCHOOL , in short. . I used to hate ITE BEDOK, but somehow i miss it because i know my school-life will be totally different starting this monday in Balestier. Although i wasted so much time at home, jobless as ever, i still want more holidays please. I think i have gained some weight during the holidays. I have manymany sleepless night, unhealthy sleep, and when you're most of the time at home you will tend to munch non-stop, agree? Most of the time during the holidays, i will rot infront of the computer for hours till very late night or even morning. I only go to sleep like seven or eight or even ten in the morning and when i wake-up i can only see the dark sky. Like my mum always say, you can do so much during the day and you wasted it. Yeah, i find it kinda true. I can see that the panda eyes starting to show more each day, and no. I will not let it be. And today, i'm glad that i can wake up and see the bright sky despite me sleeping at only 8am. The feeling is like so unexplainable, whats more with the cooling weather. SO DRAMATIC HAH! ;)

Ok kawan-kawan, do you guys believe that the number 4 is a unlucky number? I don't know if to you, it is lame. But i do believe that the number 4 is a unlucky number. Why because, another meaning of the same pronunciation of the number 4, in Chinese, means "DIE".  And i realise that these days, i am being so very unlucky. I keep on seeing the number 4, especially when i look at the time. It always show, 4.44 or 4.04. I don't know why but i became phobia of it. At times, i will tell myself "Nahh..it's just a coincidence" just to make me feel better. -.-  Sometimes it makes me think, what is HE trying to tell me.

Oh wait! I suddenly remembered that i have a far way due-date report to hand in, and it is yet to be done.. Till next time, takecare love! :D